I am competing in the WBFF New England Weekend November 9th?
Watch my next video that will be posted tonight!
From this time last year I weigh 16lbs heavier. But I look better than ever! Muscle is what gives you the slender feminine look that most girls are after! It extenuated your natural curves and who doesn’t love a six pack? Pick up the heavy weights ladies!! You won’t regret it. 16lbs heavier never looked so good!
I hate how high carb day still makes me get kind of anxious and uncomfortable. I know it’s necessary, and it’s not going to hurt me. I’m getting there though! Recovery is quite the journey, I’m not perfect!
Finally, that’s all I have to say.
Excuse my language but seriously, I have had enough. I post this picture a while ago to help empower girls to feel more comfortable in their own skin and embrace the body that they are given.
It wasn’t about me “looking hot” or whatever bullshit people think it’s about. Now I understand this IS the internet, and people do with it as they please. But the fact that people not only deleted the text, but use it for Thinspo’s, Pro Eating Disorder Blogs, Pro Suicide blog and Pale blogs to advertise themselves and gain followers! For the fact that I am recovering from Anorexia, I find this disturbing and very insulting. I’m not ignorant, I know people are self-centered and don’t give a fuck about me or the person behind the picture, but it’s me… and this really bothers me.
If I could take it down now, I would. It’s too far gone, and I’m deeply saddened to see that a post that had such good intentions turned into something so fucked up.
I think I might take a break from Tumblr for a week or so and reevaluate after. I don’t know yet. I’ll let you know what I decide. I just feel very used, and upset right now.
I hope you all understand.
I have a lot of muscle mass that I’ve acquired over the past year- like 15 pounds worth of it. lol I think it is time for me to lean out and fully see the definition I have. This is how I plan to do it:
Food: Carb Cycling. High Protein and lots of veggies and fruit.
I’m aiming for:
- 115 grams + grams of protein a day.
- 65-140 grams of carbs (65 low) (140 high) -mostly starchy carbs F&V then complex carbs i.e: Quinoa, Whole Grain Oats, Sweet Potatos
- Fat is hard, I naturally have a low fat diet (thanks to eggs and bacon in the mornings it’s getting better) I’m thinking 65grams or so? We’ll see.
This will probably change. I’m also stil working on upping my calories, so making sure my macros are on the mark really help. To me, when I focus on the nutrients I feel less anxious about the calories. (Recovery tip).
Supplements: BCAA’s, Protein Powder, Flaxseed, Multivitamin
Pre-workout: 3 scoops of BCAA’s for before/during/after
- I find these have really helped me with recovery after my workouts. I used to be so sore, and thinking about cardio the next day made me want to cry… I highly suggest trying these.
- Post workout I will have a scoop with lactose free milk. I have a lactose issue so I cycle through the week with switching from Whey to rice so it doesn’t bother me that much. I get 15-24 grams of protein per scoop- I can dig it.
- This is super important for health joints- especially for me with my arthritis. Good for everyone.
- Perfect for everyone, my insurance for my health.
Exercise: As most of you know, I’ve been doing high rep high intensity for the past 2-3 weeks. I’m going to have to cycle this so my body doesn’t plateau.
- Every other week heavy weights: 8x12 reps/ lighter weights: 15-25
My cardio is going to be 5 days a week with an active rest day:
15 minute warms up- light jog
30 minutes: HIIT
15 minutes: Plyo’s
My Lifting split:
Arms (Bic’s and Tri’s)/Abs: Cardio
Back (upper and lower)/abs: Cardio
Chest/Arms (triceps)/Abs: Cardio
Shoulders/Lower back: Cardio
My back and triceps are stubborn so I hit them twice. My shoulders and biceps however, get big very quick as well as my legs so I do them once a week.
This is something I came up with on my own. It is NOT for everyone, just me! I took a bit of inspiration from Livefit which, (HealthyK ) is doing the whole program- so follow her for her journey. I didn’t want to do the whole thing because I already have so much mass, stamina and I’ve been lifting for so long that I feel like it’s too easy for me. So I modified it to work with my lifestyle. As for Jamie Eason’s nutrition plan- follow it. It is amazing, I’ve heard nothing but amazing things, and I make her recipes myself all the time!
Hope this can help some of you with inspiration!
Breakfast: 2 soft boiled eggs, 2 slices of bacon, 1/2 grapefruit (or two days a weeks instead of grapefruit I’ll have 1 slice of ezeikel bread.)
or 2 slices of eziekel cinnamon raison toast with cream cheese and berries
or 1/2 McCann’s Irish oats with berries
Morning Snack: (I don’t always have this-but if I’m hungry I have) 1 granny smith apple with sunbutter or a protein shake
Lunch: Chicken or turkey 4oz, quinoa or sweet potato 4 oz, green veggie 8 oz
Or sometimes: Big salad with lettuce, goat cheese, chicken 4 oz and a sprinkling of craisons. Or a egg white omelet with broccoli, mushroom, onions and goat cheese
Pre-workout: BCAA with Water
Post- workout: Protein shake
Dinner: Chicken or Turkey 4oz quinoa or sweet potato 4oz (not always), green veggie 8+ oz. Or on weekends:
-tacos w. 7 carb whole grain tortillas: turkey meat, lettuce, tomatos, homemade guacamole and salsa
-Butternut squash risotto and salad
After dinner snack: Not always- berries and tea or apple with sunbutter and tea
*I’m trying to up my calories, it’s really hard. Please don’t try to count them for me- I know how much I eat. This is not meant for anyone else but me! Please don’t think that this will help you lose weight. It might, I don’t know but it’s not my intention. I am focused on a high protein diet, then moderate carbs and fat. I just give a shit about Protein… that’s all.
I just wanted to show you guys since a lot of people ask me.
So I read all of these cliche posts on Tumblr on how scales are the devil! You’re not just the number on the scale, yada yada. Now, did I believe this before? Eh.. kind of. But not entirely. I believed that my weight was kind of an accurate interpretation of my health and fitness, but today I learned otherwise.
Now I know I’ve mentioned on here recently that I have a love hate relationship with my muscle mass- which I have accumulated A LOT of (especially recently). Everyone around me said it looks like I lost weight, though on the other hand I’ve never felt bigger… I do see that I look more cinched in though. The muscle is very apparent as well. I haven’t weighed myself in over month (it honestly scares me to step on now a days). Anyways, I digress.. I hopped on today, wanting to believe I had indeed lost weight, only to find that I had gained 5lbs. Only a month ago or so, I would have bursted into tears. But I didn’t. I gazed at myself in the mirror and said to myself, “of course..” how could I not have gained that much with the amount of muscle I put on? That just wouldn’t make sense if I had lost weight.
Instead of crying as always, I stopped and thought, “I look fucking awesome. I have a 6 pack which I never had before, I have huge biceps and I’m still a 00, so who fucking cares that I gained 5lbs”.
I shocked myself with these thoughts. I have come such a long way…
So the truth is, the scale is only a number. Body fat percentage is what is key. I still want to drop my body fat down from 13-14% to like 10-12%. But I can’t complain… Recovery is such an interesting journey I tell you.
Next time you weigh yourself, just think… does it add up? How do your jeans fit? Have you measured yourself? What does that say? But even still, who fucking cares? As long as you think you look hot, and you feel comfortable in your skin- FUCK EVERYONE ELSE!
Not everyone finds my muscle attractive but, I do. I’ve never felt more beautiful in my life. Think about your happiness the next time you think about stepping on the scale.
You’re beautiful no matter what it says.