I must say, having to deal with this ED used to be so much more challenging than it is now. I am working on healing, but I’m also doing things that make life easier for me in order to enjoy food and make myself more comfortable. Just because I’m scared of calories, doesn’t mean that I don’t like to eat, or I’m not allowed to eat things with flavor, because I do. So when I’m pmsing and I just want something sweet and yummy.. I’m going to make cookies… that don’t make me want to die inside over because of the high calories. So I made the healthiest yummies cookies! 49 calories… that’s it.. and I’m not kidding. Taryn- 1, ED-0, this was a success :)
If you’re interested, I’ll post the recipe later.
My ED has gotten worse, so I’m doing what’s best for me and going to therapy twice a week now. I want to be able to up my calories but not gain anyway weight… which is obviously unachievable. I’m having a really hard time so I think I’m making changes everywhere in my life, including on here. I need to focus more on where I want to be (fit and healthy). I can’t focus and obsess over being super thin anymore. I love you all so much and appreciate all the support. But I have to do this for me. I’m not deleting it, just making some changes. I hope you all understand.