I’m disappointed in myself, I feel like since I’ve been home from college it’s has been so difficult to live the life style I hard to achieve. Back in high school when I had a job, I had earned enough money to buy a car, my parents wouldn’t let me buy one… they said that they could always take me where I needed to go and just basically no. It was annoying not having a car in high school, but now… OH MY GOD! I’m only allowed to go to the gym when my Mom can take me (that’s the only way she’ll let me use the car). So that’s maybe 3 days a week max… when I used to go 7 days a week. Also I’m used to cooking for Corey and myself. Eating a purely clean diet, I loved the way I felt. Granted I’m not ignoring my ED, oh no, I’m well aware. But I live(d) a EXTREMELY healthy life style… just to excess. A lot of my issues that I face now (i.e: ED) stem from my controlling mother… if you couldn’t tell just by the comment about the car! But anyways, I do cook most of my food but there are times where I am forced to eat her food. We don’t eat junk, but she cooks your tradition UK style meat and potato diet… and I can’t stand that! So I’m having this conflict of trying to maintain the healthy lifestyle that I have created for myself while my Mom is making it difficult in certain ways. It’s hard enough battling this ED but when I can’t get to the gym, because she doesn’t “feel like it” or she makes me eat her food for dinner.. I just can’t even….
Okay, rant over!
Posted on Thursday, 24 May
Tagged as: me bitching life mommyissues pissedoff healthyliving