{block:} My Health, My Happiness



    March 2011 to September 2014.

    A lot of my ~tumblr fame~ on findingthinagain was generated from posting that first picture with the words “I’m making myself unstoppable” on it. The pictures on the left were taken in March 2011, age 18, my senior year of high school, right as I was reaching the peak of my worst physical and mental state yet. At that time, I weighed less than 100 pounds at 5’6”, I ran everyday in addition to soccer practice, I was eating less than half the calories I should have been to support such an active lifestyle, and I had essentially zero social life thanks to my extremely rigid diet and exercise. Additionally, I hadn’t had a period since December, my body temperature resided around 96F, and my resting heart rate was typically around 34. My hair was falling out in handfuls, I didn’t have any hobbies besides exercise, and yet I insisted that I was perfectly okay because I was an elite athlete.

    The pictures on the right were taken today. I’m 21, graduating college next semester and getting ready to move on to grad school. I weigh ~120 pounds, not sure exactly because I don’t remember the last time I weighed myself. I get my period every month, my body temperature is normal, my resting heart rate is around 55. I play college soccer and I’m in great physical shape. I have no idea how many calories I eat per day, but I know it’s enough. I have wonderful friends that I spend time with almost everyday, with no second thought to how it might affect my eating or exercise. I draw and play music and read books and live life. I am a whole, functioning, happy person. That doesn’t mean I don’t still have my struggles, but they are no longer so overwhelming that they take over my identity.

    It can get better.

    I love you Carly. You were the first blog I ever followed on here about 3 years ago…I don’t even have words to describe how proud of you I am. You’re a force to be reckoned with.

    I met Carly through a mutual friend last year, I knew I recognized her when I saw her in person, but couldn’t place her then. I’m sad I didn’t get the opportunity to let her know how she inspired me to become the person I am today. Thank for sharing your struggles and giving strength to those of us who needed it.


    treat other ladies like leslie knope treats ann perkins 

    My weekend consisted of crafting, decorating and lots of cuddles. I am one happy girl ❤️


    I’m pro carbs and anti pants

    Intensity. It’s a new week, go get it. No matter what it looks like… #werk

    I have a new OOTD video up on the Youtube Channel. I hope it gets you inspired for the fall season. Don’t worry, Corey makes an appearance too!

    Let me know what you think!

    Watch out guys, I’m back on my grind!

    I told you guys I would be doing a Youtube Series on Bodybuilding, Competing and The Fitness Industry. Well, here we go! New video up about competition bikini’s and heels up on Thursday!

    If you have any questions you want me to answer in this series, let me know in the comments.

    You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy. So let them go, let go of them. I tie no weights to my ankles.
    C. JoyBell C (via slacked)
    Nothing’s worse than not knowing how to mourn someone…

    Lost a close high school/middle school friend of mine today in a car accident. It’s been a few years since i’ve seen him, so I feel awkward as to how to express how I feel. It sucks losing someone even if you’re not close with them anymore. Can’t stopping tearing up this morning.